My Views of the World Pandemic: The Ups and Downs

I know this year of 2020 has been extremely hard. Believe me I know. I was ALL the way in Australia and was asked to come back earlier. I went through the 5 stages of grief. First just denial. No way was this happening, this is suppose to be my study abroad time! Then I just had anger, about the whole Coronavirus thing being so dumb, and just annoyed how my friends were abroad longer than I was, and now I will just stuck indoors all day for two weeks after I arrive back home! A few days later, I was just sad. Sad to be missing out on exploring Australia and my dad visiting. Maybe bargaining would help, maybe I can stay half way through and convince my parents that would work, and promise to come straight back home after an extra three weeks of staying. But the whole thing with borders closing and limited flights, made that impossible. Then I just accepted the fact my study abroad experience was seriously going to be cut short and I could do nothing about it. I flew back and then I had to try to do classes in the evening/late night which so did NOT work out. My family spends family time in the evenings, which we take very seriously by the way. I mean it was extremely depressing, the whole thing from beginning to end. I just could NOT do it. I just could not focus on anything. Especially, given the fact that people were dying and I was suppose to care about school more?!?! School was definitely one of the last things on my mind. I even deferred my exams and supposedly have them this week sometime??? They never gave me much detail about it....so I am really unsure at this point.

I am now doing two internships. One already began with a non profit organization. Their mission is to help refugees by creating granola. Which I've heard is quite good. The organization is called Beautiful Day. I would definitely recommend checking them out at https://www.beautifuldayri.org. A family friend said their granola is so good, she eat its plain for breakfast as a snack!!! Another internship I am doing is with an organization called Savory Fare that gives out nice fresh meals to the elderly and their caretakers. Their website is https://savoryfareinc.com. Their meals look very good, and healthy. Doing these internships is definitely something I would consider to be adulting. I am taking responsibility, initiative and putting time and effort to help with social media and marketing. It also helps with just broadening my experience in the field of business.

Even though a lot of aspects are quite negative occuring in 2020. I feel like also some positive things should be addressed. Such as the Black Lives Matter Movement occuring worldwide. Globally a shift has happened, and is happening. I can feel it. A lot more awareness and discussion have been brought out because of it among all races, and people. It's an ongoing change that will need to be fought everyday!!! A change in the system, a change in the people, and a change in the systemic oppression of POC worldwide. A change in the way people perceive things and alter the behavior and traditions in which support and is seeped in white supremacy, misogny and social class. As well as, from all these countries being shut down world wide, nature has been able to breathe a little. Breathe and grow! Recover from all the air pollution and water pollution humans create resulting in clean wate and air. There were recently billions of little turtles hatching on the beach (never seen before in 100 years), whales sightings near the coasts, new birds in the city and much more has been able to naturally run its course and naturally bloom. These positive changes are showing itself. The beauty of nature is blossing, flourishing and growing! It's important as we move forward to not destroy both the planet and people. Showing kindness, compassion and love for all beings of life and actively choosing to make the world a better place is the future!!!! ❤️

I feel like when hard times are happening. I try to find the positivity in things.It really helps me from not going down a rabit hole of sadness. However, when one does feel sad, anger, dissapointment or any other emotion, there is no shame, in letting that feeling it out. It's very healthy to let it go and run through you. Just know in the end it will be okay, I greatly believe this, even if it is not so okay right now. In order to pass time, I have been exploring new hobbies and getting creative. I have learned quite a few new receipes and actually know how to cook this year. YAAAAY!!!! Another form of adulting, having to provide for oneself for survival. Knowing how to survive would be great...I have also been thinking about restarting my Youtube Channel. Trying new skits and finding ways to bring humor in. I'll see what happens there. If you're curious about it, the channel is: Travl Zistdas.

Today I made a creative Tik Tok. I cracked myself up. Unfortunately, a little bit of my screen protector also seemed to crack with it, when it fell into the tub. But it was fun making it. The editing of it took a while, since I haven't used Tik Tok ever before on my @jeenweblang account. The editing really took me a while to get the hang of. I redid it ten times because I kept going fully back, and erasing everything I had already edited. I finally understood how to manipulate each little aspect I wanted to do, such as first the transitions, and then the voice over, then add in the effects and so on. Another thing....speaking of being able to cook, I made an amazing bowl of Kimchi for the family this evening. It was extremely delicious and asthetically beautifully made, if I say so myself. I have also created this blog page to express my thoughts to you this week. I really want to explore my own thought process, go in depth with it with you and to really see what happens. I am very excited about this!

This blog is very long, so I will wrap it up for tonight...

I hope everyone is staying SAFE during this Pandemic. Make sure to WEAR a mask, social distance with SIX FEET apart, and WASH hands.

****This corona is not over yet, even if you are over it!!!!*****

Side Note:

I really would love to be able to travel in the next 5 years guys, and not be stuck inside all the time...Just a thought. I'm just going to put that out there and leave it there. Anyways....

Be Kind. Be Compassionate. Spread Love not Hate!!!! ❤️

XOXO

Gossip Girl.

Just kidding.

Peace, Love and Change,

Jeena

Comment down below things you have been doing during this Pandemic. What are new hobbies or skills you have learned? What are new facts or information you now know, that you did not know before? What have you learned? How has your experience been during this Pandemic?